Hopeless Eternity
This happened in 1960 while we were living in Monte Vista, California.
I was seven years old when God allowed me to experience total and complete hopelessness.
This hopelessness was the worst thing I have ever experienced in my entire life. That was 60 years ago and I have never felt anything as horrible as that feeling was.
Ecc 3:11 He has made every thing beautiful in his time: also he has set eternity in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God makes from the beginning to the end.
I have always been keenly aware of time for as long as I can remember.
When I was about seven years old one night I went to bed and as I was lying there I began thinking about eternity and how time would march into the future forever, it would never stop.
Then I realized that one day I would grow old and my life would end and time would continue on with out me.
I realized that I would never exist again, ever, time would go on forever and ever and I would never be there ever again?
There was nothing I could do about this, there was no solution and it was an absolute certainty, time would go on and I would never exist again.
This realization gave me a feeling of complete and utter hopelessness and there was nothing that could be done to change that fact.
I would lie in bed and look up at where the walls met the ceiling and go from corner to corner around and around the room knowing that’s how time would continue on forever without me.
This horrible feeling the feeling of complete hopelessness God allowed me to experience as he removed all knowledge of Himself and heaven from my mind.
At that age I knew their was a God and a place called Heaven, however during this experience they were removed from my mind as I never once thought of them.
This went on night after night for months and then one day just as it had begun it ended I never experienced those thoughts again.
Many years later as I remembered lying in bed experiencing hopelessness I had no fear as I knew then that there was an afterlife and I would live on into eternity.
The feeling of complete hopelessness is absolutely horrible there is nothing like it and I now thank God for allowing me to experience it.
I thank God all the time for creating me and allowing me to live, and I am in total awe that God has allowed me to live to old age considering all the sin that I have indulged in?
If I were God my patience would have expired long ago and I would have squashed me like a bug and thrown the remains in Hell and never given me another thought.
I will never understand the “Love of God” ever? How could God love me?
The greatest thing I have ever found during my pilgrimage through this time God has giving me on the earth is Gods word “The Bible”.
The Bible is my most valuable possession for it contains the promises of God and those promises have removed all hopelessness and fear.
God created me and he loves me with a love that is beyond my comprehension, a love that will bring joy and peace throughout eternity.
God has also created a place for me in Eternity, a place that will bring complete satisfaction, He created the creature/me and the place/my spot in Heaven and the two are a perfect match.
Their are two promises God has given me to remove all hopelessness, they are promises of hope, we have Gods word is it a sure thing, period.
1Jn 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Joh 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Joh 3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
God is the God of love and above all else He is the God of HOPE.
I will be spending eternity with the God who created me and I will serve Him throughout all eternity.
I will always exist and you will too, the question is where?
I hope you will choose God as I have, He is an awesome God.
If you refuse Gods offer of Life through His Son Jesus Christ, then you will spend eternity in a “Lake of Fire”
At the moment of death, the moment the clock in your chest, your heart beats it’s final beat at that very moment you will experience hopelessness?
Trust me on this one, I know, I’ve been there, you don’t want any part of hopelessness.
Choose well my friend, Eternity is a very long time.
Always remember once you take your last breath, it’s a done deal.
Pastor Bob.
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