Hopelessness
- Pastor Bob
- 4 days ago
- 2 min read
When I was about seven years old one night I was lying in my bed and before I fell asleep all the sudden it dawned on me, one day over time I will grow old and one day I will die.
Then I thought when I die time will go on, thousands of years will pass time will continue into the future and I wont be there, I will never exist again.
I remember looking at the ceiling and going around and around from corner to corner around and around all the time thinking time will go on and on into the future and I wont be there.
At that point in time God revealed to me utter hopelessness, I felt sick to my stomach, someday I would be gone, never to exist again, and their was absolutely nothing I could about it, total and complete hopelessness.
Every once in a while I would think about it, lying in by bed looking up at the ceiling going around and around time would go forward on into the future, and I would not be there, I would never exist again and their was nothing I could do about it, and every time I got sick to my stomach and complete hopelessness would fill my heart.
This lasted about a year and then one day it stopped and I never thought about it again until I was grown.
I believe God allowed me to experience hopelessness and it had a major impact on my life and two thing came from it,
I am obsessed with time. Eternity; Past-Present-Future
Rev 4:8 And the four beasts had each of them six wings about him; and they were full of eyes within: and they rest not day and night, saying, Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, which was, and is, and is to come.
I know what hopelessness is, I know what it feels like, and don't want anyone to die without God and enter into hopelessness for all of eternity. This is why preaching the gospel is something I have to do by any means possible.
Ecc 3:11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set eternity in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God makes from the beginning to the end.
Eternity=Time
Hopelessness = Despair, misery, agony, sorrow,
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