During my 67+ years on planet Earth I have found one truth, the Bible is that truth. Don't make any mistakes in this life that will effect you during the next. Once you take your last breath the next thing will be you standing before Jesus. It will be better for you if he is your Lord and savior that your judge. He created you and he loves you more than you will ever know.
The truth is when you leave this planet it's Heaven or Hell and you not wanting to believe that does not change that truth. The real bummer is that hell is default, and all you have to do to wind up there is nothing, the really good news is all you have to do to spend eternity with your Creator in heaven is ask, that's it, just ask. Just look up toward Heaven and say Lord Jesus I know I have made a mess of my life, I now ask you to forgive me all my sins and I ask you to become the Lord of my life , I give everything to you. That it, and that is the truth.